Lately I have been having a hard time trusting in the Lord's timing. Life can be really discouraging sometimes. I am trying my best to be the happiest that I can be RIGHT NOW. It's hard sometimes being single and seeing girls from high school and college getting married and having kids. I have never wanted a career. My deepest desire has always been to be a wife and mother, except for maybe in first grade when I wanted to be a dolphin trainer at the Baltimore Aquarium. It has definitely been hard on me not being at that same stage of life as other girls my age. It's funny how LDS culture works. I am only 23, which I have to remind myself, but it's hard. I am learning patience and to be happy no matter my current circumstances. It's tough, but I'm getting there.
I had work off today, so I had a lot of time to study and reflect on my life. I know that the Lord has a plan for all of us. It doesn't always go how we want it to, but it is always right for us. If my life had gone how I had planned it, I know without a doubt I wouldn't be as happy as I am today. The Lord knows us and our needs. Our lives go how they are supposed to.
Guys, life is soooooooo good. Sometimes I am cranky and forget that, but seriously, life is great! I have so much to be thankful for:
The obvious things: gospel, family, friends, jobs etc...
My boyfriend. DUH
That I don't look like this anymore:
To be off of medication. Picture of the last time taking my medication. That felt good.
Ollie and all the cute things he says/does
Friends who are funny and bring a chocolate pie for my first time seeing The Help
idp's, especially when they are Beyonce themed
Facetiming my shirtless teenage (WHAT) brother on his birthday. Made me laugh
Going on dates with these two:
Jayne: "let's play a game where we're cats!"
That we got gram to come to a BYU game. She said it's been since the 90's. My dad said more like the 70's. Either way, it's been a while. She came to represent gramps.
She even high fived the entire team after haha
Gram and all the funny things she does.
Jayne and her art. She colored this saying it's her on her wedding day. I love her.
Finding old pictures that make me happy:
And SOOOOO many more things. I have so much to be thankful for!